Countdown

In two more days, I go back to work full time and Isaac goes back to daycare full time. It's overwhelming to think about. Lately, I've been so anxious when it comes to anything and everything Isaac. Like when I talk about him to friends, I feel my blood pressure rise, I talk faster, I stumble on my words because I just can't get over the fears I have yet. Maybe it's to be expected - almost like post traumatic stress but it's not a great feeling. Having the reduced hours has been great - it means that Isaac is only at daycare for about three hours before he naps and shortly after he wakes up from nap, I pick him up. Now he will be dropped off at 7 a.m. - he naps at 12:30 p.m. so that's a long stretch of play. Anyway, it's going to be like bringing him for the first time again for me I think...

Isaac had three falls last week. First he fell off a stool at my mom's house - right onto his head. We were freaked. We called the pediatrician and once we finally spoke with our doctor, were told that he would be telling us exactly what he would tell any parent of a "normal" two year old. Because Isaac's fractures were most likely healed by now. Later in the week he took a tumble down our stairs and bonked his head and on Friday he fell out of a chair at daycare...onto his head. Maybe this has helped contribute to my increased anxiousness lately. Anyhow, I finally called his pediatrician in a panic on Friday. I want another CT scan - I want to know that his fractures have healed - that falling on his head hasn't re-injured anything, etc. He said no. He doesn't feel he needs one because there are no signs that there have been any damage. To the brain or the skull. Again, he feels he's a normal two year old. So hard to grasp....even now.